Friday, January 15, 2021

Running Home: The Introduction (Testimony Series Part 1)

 

    The testimony series that I've started today tells a story that I have been wanting to share for a long time. The "Running Home" series has been the biggest blessing that I never expected to receive. The whole writing journey is a road I never saw myself traveling on. When I was nineteen, the Lord began to tug on my heart. He wanted me to write something for Him, but I had no idea what it could be. I thought of crafting a memoir about life with a disability. The idea of fiction never entered my thoughts. 


Oh, what plans the Lord has for us! The concept for the blog was born a few years later at my aunt's wedding reception. I was battling with a heart that felt unfulfilled and without purpose. You have to have a reason for being. I had prayed fervently for weeks and had rededicated my life to Christ when this opportunity arose. I have loved blogging for the past five years. I have loved serving my Savior through my words. It really is great therapy at times. 

In the spring of 2016, I came across this woman named Cookie. My mother had mixed paint for her on several occasions and they were friends on Facebook. I don't remember who became friends with who, but we friended each other as well, and she had been enjoying my blog posts. Cookie called my mother one day at work and told her that she had a story she wanted me to have; she also asked if we could possibly meet. This was out of the blue, and I was nervous but wonderfully excited. In hindsight, I've always wondered why I didn't take my notebook with me on that day; it didn't matter though, because this is one story you don't easily forget. 

We met on a Wednesday afternoon and it was the sweetest time. I listened to the story and loved it right away. She handed me a book that she had written in. The book was called "The Storyteller" by Jodi Picoult. The very back contained a message she had for me: "To the greatest story teller ever! I love you!" 

I still have that book in my possession today. After I went home, I sat and pondered over the afternoon, and for the longest time, I questioned whether I was meant to write something like that. The main backdrop for the series is based on her ex mother in law Melda Cecil. When I met Cookie, I was not a fiction writer. I was keen on 'life with a disability' posts, a few faith based blog posts, and general life material. I had purchased a fiction writing book three years prior on a whim. I had told my boyfriend at the time that I casually thought about becoming a writer. I never knew if I would use it. Isn't it funny how life can be like a game of connect the dots? 

I spent the next few years continuing to do my faith based blogging, traveling across the country as part of a disability advocacy group. I grew weary of it, but it was one of those once in a lifetime opportunities that I am so thankful for. I shelved the story for a long time, and my Mom probably thought I would never get to work on it. 

The disability advocacy experience was the perfect way to prepare my heart for this task. I was so into my body and cerebral palsy had wrongfully become my identity. I needed to have that mindset stripped away, and having cerebral palsy run into the ground was a great way to push me towards embarking on the fictional journey. I was sick of it and wanted to do something as a creator that had nothing to do with my body or its functions; without mention of limitations. 

I had applied to Coffee House Writers before, but for some reason I was not accepted until March of 2019. I don't remember if I didn't send in my stuff or what happened to delay it, but I gave them another try and lo and behold, I was welcomed onto the team. I wrote my first story "The Unknown" and published it on Medium as one of my first submissions. "Overflowing Heart" was one of my favorite practice stories to complete. 

My heart and soul were ready.

I still go back and forth on whether I want to have this project be a book, or remain as the series of short story installments. That was one of the major thoughts that kept me from working on the stories at all in the beginning. I felt that writing a whole book would be quite an undertaking, and I wasn't sure of the format I wanted. It took me a long time to save up the courage to just go for it. I have loved every minute of working as a storyteller.  

Let's start with the name: Running Home was a title that came to me late one night without a thought. I felt that it was a perfect way to represent that my body is not going with me to Heaven, but that my soul will be running home to rest there eternally. I physically cannot run. "Running Home" is also a saying you hear quite a bit in West Virginia as someone's way of saying they are headed home after a long day. The title also refers to a Bible verse that I will include at the bottom of this post. I meant to put it after the end of the first story when it was published and forgot. It is a faith based series that I am having so much fun creating. 

The inspiration behind the series is a collective mix of Melda's life and that of myself. As I heard the story, I was missing parts of who she was. Her years as a child and a teenager, and the dynamic with her family and husband as the years went by. Those missing parts were filled in with happenings from my family. You will see a lot of family names in the series. Lemaster, her last name is a family name originating from my mother's side. Georgia, Anna (Della's daughter), Everett, each of those names can be found in my family. 

In writing some of the more tragic scenes, I have always wanted to end them on a family oriented note. I wanted to write stories that represent family unity and the love of Christ. I wanted to show the power of His presence in their lives. Life has curveballs. That's realistic. I have always felt that a story should help its reader take away an applicable life lesson. I saw this book on Amazon that is a collection of short stories with accompanying devotionals. I would love to put together something like that one day; a goal I will work to achieve.

Coffee House Writers has been a great place to work on the series a little bit at a time. The first story is only an introduction. You meet thirteen year old Melda Harris, after the opening which first introduces us to her son Gordon, who is awaiting the start of her funeral. The story opens in 1974, and takes you back to the year 1931, showing the family's Great Depression era struggle on a poor farm in rural West Virginia. 

You also get to meet her parents: John and Sylvia Harris, along with all of her siblings: Georgia, Della, twins Clara and James, Grace, Will, and Jack. The remainder of the series is somewhat treacherous, so I wanted to start it off with a light hearted conflict such as James and Jack breaking the tomato plant. (A story loosely based on an experience my mother had with her cousin Cynthia, only it was a tree, and had a similar yet more comical ending). 

I hope that everyone has enjoyed my series so far. I still have seven more stories until I am finished with Running Home. I plan on publishing more commentary in the future as well. My entire hope for these stories is to encourage people to keep running the race that God has set before them. Don't quit on God for nothing. Learn to enjoy the blessings He gives you, despite what hardships life may throw your way. He will be your strength every step of the way. 

I found the below verse to be incredibly fitting for the concept of the series as it conveys the message of my stories in the most perfect way. God continues to be so good to me, allowing me to have this wonderfully blessed life that I do not deserve. No matter what, I will continue to run my race and I will finish my course well.

"I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth their is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, shall give me at that day :and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing". (2 Timothy 4:7-8 King James Version) 



Tuesday, January 5, 2021

A Reason To Keep Moving

 The greatest obstacle that lies in front of us is that of ourselves. The quiet whispers of the world around us and the thoughts our human flesh produce can lead us into a sense of apathy and discouragement if we are not careful. It's so easy to get caught up in our circumstances. The loss of joy on this side of heaven is far too real right now. 

I have not written from my notebook in a long while, and I have had many messages laid on my heart even in the absence of the blog. I have been largely focused on my storytelling, which is a precious gift from the Lord that I have come to love dearly. The new year has given to me a reason to keep moving, and a deeper longing to keep serving Christ.  I plan to do just that as long as God has me here. 

The apathy and discouragement are two uncomfortable emotions that I experienced after my time as part of the independent living movement. My disability was all I was ever known for during both my childhood and teenage years. As an adult, it simply got old. My writing and service to Christ became   sporadic. I was tired  in all senses of the word. As I have looked back on that time in hindsight, I can recognize God's hand in every choice I made, and in every thing I got to be a part of; even in the midst of that long and powerful storm. I grew in a lot of important areas of life during the past few years, and I have quite a bit to say as part of my reflection. 

 It allowed me to see that my identity will never be in this world, and it certainly is not in the condition of any part of my body. 

Apathy and discouragement are what I chose to mention today because I know that the entire world is submerged in those emotions due to the global crisis we are in. As I said, it's easy to find yourself feeling indifferent when it comes to sharing your faith or your heart becoming discouraged because the evil in our society is growing at an alarming pace. I have had multiple waves of sadness throughout all of the COVID mess. It's a normal human reaction. Everything has changed. Nothing about life is the same. 

The tiny reference to my own life struggle paints the core of my message today: It's easy to let life discourage our spirit. The mind is a powerful tool. Our flesh and its desires can become the biggest distraction if we allow it to. Tiredness of the soul can set in, and it can keep us from doing what we are called to do. It can take us away from our greatest joys. 

Today's post is a long one. This is not exactly what I had written down verbatim, but I had this put on me through prayer, so I'm following His lead. 

We cannot quit on Jesus. The world needs to know about Him now more so than ever. I want to share  points that highlight some of the targeted areas I have found where Satan hits me the most; in those points, I also want to share a few words of encouragement and verses that always come to mind for me, so that you can find some refuge. I pray my words will be a help to someone who reads this.

1) Satan Will Work to Discourage Us:  The devil doesn't want us serving Christ. He knows his time left is short, so he is pulling all the stops to get us away from God. I don't want to write about it too much, but we cannot let him win. Any weakness you have is what he will latch on to. Any uncomfortable memory you have is something he will use. 

"The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."  (John 10:10 King James Version)

The best way that I combat discouragement is by reflecting on life as a whole. I have recently started doing that in my mind, and it seriously helps to remind me of the Lord's presence in my life, and of His love for me. I don't make a list. I just think back to all the opportunities I've had, and all of the blessings that I never expected to receive. I've even found lessons in the moments that were not great on my part. I've seen His hand in the worst of my past. Growth is a good thing. The best piece of advice I can give is this: If you do make a list of the good and bad in your life, don't look at it through your own eyes. Look at it the way Jesus would; see it through His eyes. If you try, your perspective will change in a flash. I will write more in depth blog posts on this in the near future. 


2) Satan Will Try To Get Our Mind off of Our Savior:  A lot of what I write here is interchangeable with the last point, but this is especially important in today's culture : if you are saved, this world is not your home. Any distraction be it big or small should be prayed out of our way. We need to keep our eyes on the Lord, because He is in essence all that we need in this life. Everything else is a source of temporary joy. Keep on going for Him, and don't lose heart. It's easy to be apathetic in today's world, but keep running the race. We have a reason to keep moving!  

"I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 3:14 King James Version) 

3) This World Is Full of Fear; Fight It With Faith:  The virus is real and it has hurt millions of citizens around the globe. The media is participating in fear mongering that has gripped everyone's attention. People are arguing online. Violent crime has escalated. Riots are the go to way of standing up for something. It is important to be smart about what's going on, and I believe in choosing to avoid large gatherings both for your safety and your health. I don't think there is any real way to avoid the virus completely. I also am not fearful of what's ahead. I am concerned, but I don't fear. I choose to live by faith. 

"Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." (Ephesians 6:11 King James Version) 

We may be in the midst of the unknown, but it is important to know that we all have a reason to keep moving. As Christians, we must share our faith with the world. Jesus is needed now more than ever. The reflective nature of the past year has shown me that. Don't let fear shut you down. Keep going. We have a reason to keep moving.

If you have never trusted Christ as your Savior, I encourage you to do so before it is everlasting too late. Jesus loves you so much. He died on the cross for your sins, and invites you to trust in Him for eternal life in Heaven today. Even if you feel like you're at the end of your rope in life. Keep going . You have a reason to keep moving. 


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